No, I am not talking about the normal DIY, which usually involves fixing things around the house. No, but I guess you can call it DIY of the insides. Fixing what is inside, who you are and how you feel.
A while ago something upset me terribly. I have honestly never been that angry. What happened? None of yo’ business. (Bare with me.)
I had so much anger that I could not keep to myself. I lashed out, and obviously said things I should not have said. Yes, you have to let it out – in some way or another – but there is something that you have to keep in mind.
The way you say it.
Even though I have never felt that amount of anger (ever, ever, ever), it was not an excuse for saying things in a crazy ghettohhh* way, especially if you care about someone. This might have been the best time for someone to ask ‘how would you feel if someone said it to you like that?’ Um, unfortunately what is done, is done and yeah – terrible. Not proud of myself.
Every story has more than one side (of course). We all know that. No matter how bad it is, through all the crazyness, have you ever stopped and thought about it. Really thought about it?
Stop reading. Stop looking at this screen, just for a few seconds – and think about it.
Okay, was it really worth it? Did it make you feel any better? Did you every feel guilty about it?
Stop again. This time I do not have to think about it. Even though the ‘screaming’ made me feel better (because bottling up never helps), the guilt got worse. Especially if it is not like you to do or say those things. Believe me, it is (almost) the complete opposite of who I am.
Unfortunately, unlike Disney, we cannot turn back time.
For months I have been wanting to ‘make it right’, months! Since day one, aaactually. But why didn’t you?
There is only one way to put it: Forget about your fucking pride and say that you are sorry. (Said that to myself.)
Was that so hard? No, it will even make you happier. My skin is already glowing and my eyes more shiny, all because the DIY worked. The DIY? Yes, there is a way to do it yourself. It is really, very simple.
Say that you are sorry, good.
At this point it does not matter who did what, but forgive each other.
And most importantly, forgive yourself. (Try it, it helps.)
It is that simple.
Hugs tend to seal the deal, but in my case it is not an option.
Although I did hug others when I felt the need to say ‘sorry’, even a stranger once. Yes, I hugged this guy and it actually helped. Thanks guy!
Now run along, go ‘make it right’.
* No disrespect to the ghetto. The neighborhood where I grew up might be considered the ghetto too. So much love.